Friday 30 April 2010

thanks Jack...


something you said really struck a chord...I can't do this half assed and expect good results. I have to be all ass. Lol.

So simple as it seems, here is how I plan to do it. I am probably boring you all but hey it's my blog and it helps to get my thoughts out.

1. Use my resources. I am a very lucky Kit. I can afford a gym which has a pool and classes. I have not made the most of this. I haven't even used the pool or the jacuzzi. What am I thinking?
2. Count points and DON"T LIE TO MYSELF! That's easy enough right?

3. WATER speaks for itself.

So I will face the music tomorrow at weigh in

Anything I have missed?

jeans

Guess I should add I got new jeans today in a size down. That's the only positive thing I have tosay right now.

kind of bummed

ok I know I know it's all my fault. I don't need to be reminded of that so if you only have a negative comment to make I'm going to ask that you hold it back please. Right now I need support and not negativity and this blog does not seem to be the kind of source of support I had hoped for. I do appreciate those of you that pause to make an encouraging comment. To be honest yet again I'm considering whether to bother with this blog anymore. I mostly write it for myself to get my thoughts out.

This week has not been a good week. I mean, there is a reason I got to be this way, and chocolate is def one of them. So when someone puts a box of Thorntons Chocolates (and I mean a huge box) in your house and tells you they need to be eaten by the end of the week as they have been saving them for you...my mental strength cracked. I think I must have eaten 3 or 4 or more each day until yesterday. Now they are gone which is something I guess. Also of course the afore mentioned pizza, left over pizza for lunch and meal out for Daniel's belated birthday celebration.

I know we have to live a little etc but a peek on the scales tells me of course that it wasn't worth it. Right now I feel discouraged. I seem to do well for a while and then slip up. I feel like I will never have the body I want.

So, if you're not impressed, please keep it to yourself. Constructive comments only.

Monday 26 April 2010

hmmm

Started off with take out (pizza) and a HUGE box of Thornton's Chocs!!

oops.

Saturday 24 April 2010

10 days with the In Laws

So I weighed in today lost 0.8lbs. I'm kinda OK with it, I only really thought about WW from Wednesday when I rejoined. I do feel like I need to step it up, my weight loss isn't moving quite as fast as I would like it to. I know 'slow and steady wins the race but I currently have an overall loss of 11.6lbs and I'm not quite at my 5% of 12lbs and also my highest loss point was 13lbs.

I guess I will have to analyze my behaviors and work to improve them.

Hmm. What to change? This week my inlaws SHOULD arrive Monday. I believe they come bearing Easter Eggs. This will be hard to resist especially as Chocolate is just not the same in the USA (sorry USA readers). Plus with their visit will come, I'm sure Eating Out. So this will be a huge challenge. They will be here for 10 days.

Here are some thoughts for how I can stay on plan.

1. Go back to eating oatmeal and blueberries for breakfast. I have been eating cereal which, if I am honest, I never measure. If I'm even more honest I like cereal as a snack in a big old bowl, and I count it as 3 points. Um NO!

2. Keep taking salad for lunch. I have been taking salad for lunch lately, chopping up peppers, cucumbers, carrots and whatever else I have. I have a 0 point spray dressing so it is great to spend 0 points on lunch. I usually take a 2 point yogurt, an apple, and some kind of cereal bar (2) so spend around 5 points on lunch.

3. Gym I will have to try to sneak in gym visits while they are here to keep the damage down. This will be tough as they are here during our regular working week, so I'm sure I will be needed at home for the car to take them places, but I have to try to sneak in at least some cardio.

Any other ideas friends?

Wednesday 21 April 2010

Help! Trying to keep it together.

So I miss my e tools badly. I aim to get them back when I get paid. They really keep me in check. I just did a quick add up of my food today including dinner and I am looking at being over points by about 1.

I want to do this. I feel helpless without ww but right now I can't reinstate it into my life. Actually, maybe there is a way. I could use some money from savings on the promise that I put it right back when I get paid in about 10 days time. I don't want to fall off the wagon. I'm going to discuss this with Daniel right now! I don't want what I have achieved to fall by the wayside. I really really don't!

Edited - we decided I should just do it! So I am about to. I have missed it. I am hopeless at keeping on track by myself.

On Monday I went to the gym with my friend Amy and boy did she work me hard. We did the treadmill for cardio and then she ran us through some paces of...well how to describe it? Like bicycles lying on our backs and leg raises and all sorts. Also weights! That's good as I need to tone up badly as well as losing weight. My body took it hard and is still aching! It was very weird, the next day driving to school I could FEEL my stomach muscles trying to stabilize me as I went around corners! I could feel those muscles working!! I maywell run through those paces myself before I get in the shower in a little while.

In other news the in laws have been trying to make it over here and were due on the 16th, they are now due on Monday and as flights have resumed I am hopeful. I know they come bearing Easter Eggs which is a little worrying...

Sunday 18 April 2010

I fell right through the cracks...now I'm trying to get back...




Hi all. Guess the song title I used as my blog post today?

In ways it hasn't been a good week for me, I new I was not going to be weighed in by weight watchers. Seriously, this seems to have some kinda of effect on my brain that tells me it's ok to grab a chocolate bar anytime I go to the store. And not even a small one.

I haven't been able to renew my ww pass yet. At the moment it looks like I might have to do it when I get paid on the 30th. But up until that time, I don't want to undo my hard work so it's time to get back on track now. I hate not having my online tracker to help me. I really miss it and will get it back as soon as possible.

It's been a very odd week - with both stress as my in laws were due to fly out on Friday to visit us (including for Daniel's 30th birthday) anf or course, a volcano in iceland chose to deposit a bunch of ash into their airspace. I know, as many people have commented, that it is better to be safe than risk an accident. Of course I KNOW that. I am just gutted for them as they had put so much into the trip and are so disappointed. They are re - booked for Wednesday but I am not hopeful that will work out either as the stuff shows no sign of moving off.

There have also been some emotional things going on with my family and I think all these things combined with 'no weigh in' lead me back to old habits. And I can tell you, my body does not feel good as a result. I feel sluggish, my digestion isn't right and even my skin feels off. Time to fix that and be on track.

I don't trust my own scales. They say that this week I have lost 2lbs putting me at 226.8lbs - though they usually weigh me a little lighter than ww, I always use them to just a loss or a gain. I just don't know how it can be correct...after the way I have eaten this week. Another reason I miss Weigh Ins. Maybe I will have to go back sooner. Just don't know if that is financially possible.

Either way, time to be on track.

Daniel's 30th was yesterday, and aside from him having an awful cough as the result of a cold, and the fact the in laws didn't make it, we had a good day. His team, Cardiff city, won their game assuring them a place in the play offs for the premier league. We have awesome bagels (as always) from Owen's, we lounged around. We had a lovely dinner at Aria, a Tuscany grill, the food was gorgeous. To end the day, we kindly got given comp tickets to see the musical 'Jersey Boys' at Daniel's place of work. It is the story of The Four Seasons - think 'Sherry' 'Oh what a night' 'walk like a man' etc. It was a good day.


Saturday 10 April 2010

Lets face the music and dance



So I went to ww and gained 2.2lbs.

I'm kinda OK about it, I was hoping for no more than a gain of 3 to keep me over the 10lb mark.

After a lot of financial discussions and calculations I think I will renew my ww monthly pass. I love my leader and my meeting people and I want to make the most of it while I can. I still have 11 potential weigh ins though for one of them I may be (HOPEFULLY) in Seattle if all works out as the numbers add up.

So here I go, back on track and hoping this time next week I will be posting a loss here.

Did i mention we did a whole lot of walking in San Fran. Totally hilly - the downhill was actually harder than the up hill because I have weak ankles and had to keep my balance - it was not easy and boy did I feel it in my muscles. It was worth it for these views...

Friday 9 April 2010

I is has a sad


I dont really want to go to ww tomorrow. My scales seem to be saying I have put on at least a couple of pounds...that'ss be the banana split...starbucks etc etc. I thought we had done so much walking that I would be ok or kinda ok. Guess not.

I know I have to face the music though to get back on track.

I also still have to decide if I am going to renew my ww pass. I would like to. I can't do it on my own plus my scales are soooo not reliable. Also right now the display seems to be messed up - I can't read it clearly it is all faint.

Saturday 3 April 2010

bye

lost 0.4lbs

13lbs total

I'm ok with that.

San Francisco here we come