Tuesday, 30 June 2009

well I gotta have faith

Well today I am ... not struggling but feeling very peckish! I think it is because of the reason us girls do get peckish once a month... I am desperately trying not to give in.

Last night we went to our friends house and they had made carrot cake cupcakes. I'm sorry to say I ate 2, and then some cereal when I got home. Think I was over my points by 3 so will have to either go to gym or swim to work them off.

I decided to enter my picture to weightview.com - they will edit your picture to show how you will look if you lose 50lbs. I first saw the idea on Alice's Blog.

Here is how mine turned out.

Yesterday while grocery shopping I cam across these.

I am keeping them frozen so I don't scoff the lot. I cannot afford to get to into the low cal chocolate options or I will lose control!! They are 2 points each.

All I have had so far is scrambled egg on toast....made by hubby Daniel so unsure how to point it!

Any ideas?

Have a great day.

Monday, 29 June 2009

I'm so excited..and I just can't hide it...!

I just can't get over how excited I feel about being on this journey again. It's weird! I just...feel different. Like my heart is really in it. The only time I ever felt like this before was losing weight for my wedding in 2002.

I hope that my feelings are a good sign. I know I won't always feel like this. I feel like a kid on Christmas Eve, like something great is going to happen. I don't feel down anymore. I don't feel like I'm doing this half heatedly.

I would like to bottle this feeling up as I know it will get harder. It just doesn't feel like a chore right now.

The next few weeks will be hard as my parents will be here on holiday for almost 4 weeks. I'm not sure how I am going to deal with the eating part of this e.g eating out. Also my birthday is coming up in July. Any tips? I don't want to backslide.

Sunday, 28 June 2009

Well the cookout went well, I was able to sneak a look at the hot dog and buns packages and work out the points. The pic above is before we left - Daniel had to work.

I ate 2 hot dogs in buns, some fruit (someone put a tray of fruit right where I was sitting) and birthday cake. All pointed.

Today has been pretty regular. Did the laundry at Amy's (we don't have a washer/dryer in our apartment) Amy brought back some Chinese (chicken, broccoli and brown rice) from a Chinese restaurant that prides itself in healthy cooking - no additives etc. I only ate half of it and saved half for Daniel.

I have been pretty wiped out so napping this afternoon and consequently have 14 points left at 8.30pm. I also didn't get up until 11am so that explains it also.

Have a great ww week.

Saturday, 27 June 2009

Weigh in 1 and an Early Morning Wake Up Call!

Ok weigh in 1. It isn't really 1 but it is for this new hope that I can get somewhere.

Start Weight 237lbs BMI 38.2

Weigh in 1 June 27th 234.2lbs BMI 37.8 loss 2.8lbs

I am more than happy with this result. I have only really been back on track 3 days. It's encouraging to see my body is responding to it already.

I had a heart to heart with my friend Amy about losing weight. She agreed to be my motivator. I trust her as she lost 60lb plus of her own and she now loves to work out. We arranged to go to a nearby park to workout this morning at 9am.

We were mostly power walking, we did 4 laps of the lake or about 2 miles, taking about 30 minutes.

This is the lake we went to, photo by me of course!

It is sweltering hot here, like in the 90s even at 9am. I did struggle with that. It was also a very bright day. I still haven't shaken my headache from the sun.

Also kind of odd, the insides of my two biggest toes were rubbing together, leaving blisters inbetween my toes. Amy wants to do this every day except Sundays. She is much fitter than I am but we will see how it goes. I need to start slow and build it up or I will crash and burn!

I'm worried tonight. We have a cookout to go to with work people. I will have to be very careful as i know there will be hot dogs and snacks. I'm going to at least make sure I don't go there hungry.

Friday, 26 June 2009

KAmy time...and the movies

Today has been another great day. Its 9.15pm Eastern Time and I still have 7 points left. I'm worried about that as I think I do better at this when I eat all my points. I'm going to try to listen to my body though and see how hungry I feel.

Today my wonderful friend Amy took my hubby out shopping for my up coming birthday. So sweet of her as hubby doesn't drive.

Here we are together, just a few weeks ago. We combined, are KAmy. Just like Brangelina! We have a lot of fun together. She is an awesome friend I will be sad to leave here in the USA when we move back.

So I was chilling for a couple of hours and was all dressed in workout clothes ready to try my "Dancing with the Stars" (aka strictly come dancing dvd.) But they arrived back literally as I was hitting the play button! But I still managed to do it!

I did make the mistake of doing it hungry, but I managed 20 minutes of trying the different styles of dance, such as the paso doble and the jive. It was fun. I think I may have to hit the gym to tho to make sure I'm getting enough cardio. Considering we have a little gym in our apartment complex about a 1 minute walk away I have no excuse.

So Amy and I decided to go to the movies, to see 'My Sister's Keeper' - a book I have read twice as it is by my favourite author, Jodi Picoult. I feel like (although it has only been two days) that this was my first big challenge.

I always take or buy something to munch on, or get popcorn. Not today. I could have easily resumed my old mentality of 'well it's just one time' and use the cinema trip as a reason to eat junk. Not this time. I took a little bag of grapes. Yep grapes. I did buy a diet coke and also an iced fruit bar (iced lolly) which was 1.5 points and make with real strawberries. It tasted so good.

I felt like this was a show of how dedicated I am. I feel better inside and out and it has barely been 3 days.

Ok, onto weigh in. I've been hopping on and off the scales out of routine. Tomorrow morning I will weigh officially. I weighed myself after the beach trip this past weekend.

The results were 237lbs or 16st 9.

I will use this as my start weight. It's hurting me becasue a couple of months ago I got down to 220lbs and 15st 7.

From now on I will weigh on Friday or Saturday morning.


I would like to lose 82lbs, to make me 11 stone 1. I worked that out over a year to be 1.5lbs a week. Maybe, just maybe it is doable. Or close to do able.

I want and need to be a healthy BMI/Weight for my height as above.

This time next year I want to be wearing a bikini on the beach.

I have to begin with my 10% goal. This will be 23lbs loss. or 1 stone 9lbs (edited as I made a mistake the first time)

I hope I can get there. I'm damn well gonna try. And truthfully, I'm excited.

Thursday, 25 June 2009

My new favorite salad

I feel like today is going well so far.

We went out to lunch to Panera Bread with a good friend and colleague of Daniel's.

Check out their website here http://www.panerabread.com/. It is a bakery cafe kinda thing.

They make my favorite salad in the whole world. Now I am not a HUGE salad person. I mean, my hubby makes great salads but I would never choose a salad when I'm eating out. This one has won me over. It is called the Poppy Seed Salad. You can have it with chicken but I prefer it without.

Romaine lettuce, fresh strawberries, blueberries, pineapple, Mandarin oranges, pecans & our fat-free poppyseed dressing.

I also had half a tomato and mozarella panini. The joy of Panera is they do a 'you pick two' deal so you can get half sandwich half salad which I think is awesome.

I have found that most places here have excellent detailed nutritional information. So I worked out the points for my salad. It was..... 1 POINT!! Oh yes! Oh jubilation!!

So anyways, I have used 14.5 points so far...

Bagel - 4
iced Fudgesicle - 0.5
salad 1
panini 6.5
potaoe chips (side order choice) 2.5

Maybe I can do this after all!

Wednesday, 24 June 2009

Header and Grocery Shop

I know! Two posts in one day. Go me!

Firstly I have been working all night on my header! It is made using a picture I took when at the beach this weekend.I felt it fitted the journey theme well, as i feel like I'm at the beginning of the bridge.

Also I finally got up off my butt to go to the grocery store. I felt inspired to go and started to remember meals I used to make, like pasta with Campbell's tomato soup! Sometimes dinner time is hard for me, my Hubby works in a performing arts theatre and so leaves for work around 5pm and comes home 10.30 onwards, so it is easy to be lazy and just eat rubbish for dinner. Not anymore!

I also bought these. I waste so much fruit and veg because it goes bad so fast. I'm hoping they work!

A whole lotta milkshake...

Wow. today was out and about with a friend and he bought me a peach milkshake from chick - fil - a. For you Brits its like a chicken version of burger king. It was so yummy and had huge chunks of peach in it. I just looked up the calories to work out the points.

Cal 850
Sat Fat 13
Points. 15.5.

Oh. My Goodness.

This has shown me why I have not been losing weight lately. I tend to pick things and not realise just how high the points are. I have also eaten special K today making a total of 18.5 points on those two things. I feel like an idiot. A big idiot. And a depressed one. I'm an expert at being depressed about my weight.

The beach was a lot of fun and yes we did eat out the whole weekend which I'm sure was not good. I have been too lazy to go get groceries but I must must go today. I am going to throw on my dance workout dvd and then shower and go.

Also there are too many pop tarts in this house. And they are 6 points for two. Maybe I should just eat one in the future for a treat. 3 points is not so bad for a treat.

Here I am at the beach.

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

long time no see

I'm so mad at myself. I have been focused on eating healthily at all, points or otherwise.

I'm up to my original weight and probably beyond. I feel like the groove I had has gone.

The last month or so I've been looking at (though not doing) faddy diets. the special k diet. the soup diet. As a last ditch resort to lose weight before my parents come. I wanted to surprise them. I feel crappy that I won't. And also like they will be disappointed in me. Especially my mum.

Goodness knows I'm disappointed in myself. Actually I kinda hate myself.

I've come to a conclusion. Faddy diets are not worth my efforts. Not as a last ditch attempt. Not as any attempt.

I know ww works for me. The first week I did it in 2002 when I was losing weight for my wedding, I lost 7lbs. I know it works if I'm committed. And planned. And not lazy. Or blase.

This week a collegue and friend's husband died aged 39. He had been diagnosed with prostate cancer and we do not know yet if this was the cause, but he was supposedly in recovery. Not in a critical stage.

It makes me feel like I owe it to him and to myself to be as healthy as possible. Why abuse my own healthy body by something as simple as being overweight?

Tomorrow and onwards I will count points. I will work out. I will get it together. Because I can't feel like this anymore.

Bryher, you remain my inspiration. I have revisted your blog today back to the beginning. If you are in a weight loss battle check this girl out. She is awesome


It will not be easy.
Here is why

My family are here for 4 weeks, so routine and events will not be typical.
We are going to the beach this weekend.
Eating out is totally they way they do it here. It's so cheap and easy.

But here I go. Please let this be the last here I go.