Saturday, 31 October 2009

sweets for my sweet....

Long time no blog...when I'm not home sick all day I kinda didn't get time.

I have to be honest I don't think I wrote down any food or points but I felt like I had a good grasp on how much I was eating. Not good enough, I know. I felt like I had a lot to cope with this week. I'm just glad I MADE it through the week. I am feeling much better, still some phlegm on my chest which surfaces every now and then.

So I weighed and lost 0.8lbs. I'm glad my scales are that accurate! Almost a lb anyways! I'm ok with that. Hopefully now I am feeling better I can get back to the exercise. Down is better than up.

Today we went to see 'Where the Wild Things Are' at the mall, in the IMAX theater. I was realy impressed with the quality of IMAX and the movie was cool - an interesting take on the book with is about 10 sentences long. I like that it is kinda someones interpretation.

Today is halloween - something, growing up in a christian home in the UK, I have never celebrated. Here it is definitely viewed differently and christians do celebrate it. The dress up thing is different, kids and adults dress up as anything really, not just something scary or ghostly.

On going to pay the rent check today in our apartment office, I was given this. MMMM!

Sunday, 25 October 2009

please take me...ouuut tonight...

If you haven't realized it already, almost all of my titles are song titles or lyrics.

Anyways, Friday night we decided to go out with my USA BFF Amy, and another friend and colleague. It was the same group from our beach trip in the summer and it was fun to hang out. We went for dinner at panera bread. I had tomato soup and half a tomato mozarella panini. They have a cool deal called 'you pick two' where you can choose 2 items from their salads, soups and sandwiches. It is one of my favorite places to go. What I had totalled about 15 points, but I had not spent many points during the day. I took crackers and cheese to school for lunch and the crackers were really bothering my cough so I didn't eat much.

Friday was the day I felt on the upside of my illness. On Thursday, I had texted Daniel from school, a simple :-(. I was not feeling good. Friday I texted :-) as i felt so much better. Having said that as soon as the kids left I felt tired and took a nap from 2.15pm - 6pm. I couldn't believe how long I slept!

After dinner we hit the bowling alley and the bar all at once. I was driving so just had one drink malibu and coke - and then a yummy strawberry slushy kinda thing...a Daquirie without the alcohol. I usually suck at bowling and tonight was varied, I had everything from a zero score to a strike. But I really enjoyed being out and doing something.

Saturday was weigh in day and I was happy with 2lbs loss. Hopefully I can maintain it now and keep losing. I have to admit to not being very good on the weekends...I will have to fix that up quick!

I have been feeling a little is hard to explain. I feel almost homesick - not so much for people but for the place itself. I feel like I am in a rut of get up at 5 - go to work - come home - take d to work - sit around - go get Daniel - go to bed and do it all over again. I have been teary lately and I think this is why. I need to make an effort to be doing things I enjoy when we or I have the time to do so. I also would love a break away - we have bee talking about Thanksgiving or Christmas but no definite idea or plan yet.

I am still not 100% and keep getting bouts of lethargy...if they remain with me I will go get some blood tests to see whatis going on. Still a bit of a cough going on too, and a chesty one at that! Tonight we went for an early evening walk which was lovely, I can't tell you where we ended up. Any guesses?!

Saturday, 24 October 2009

I lost 2lbs this week...more later as I am off to a school event.

Thursday, 22 October 2009

roll call

points - check

sick - check

back to work - check.

I am now officially a boring blogger.

Wednesday, 21 October 2009


still sick and took today off which will be the last one I can take.

Have to battle it through Thursday and Friday to make it to the weekend.

It is 4.34pm and I have 22 points....all i have had is cereal and a cereal bar. (I had 4 points left yesterday) oh and orange juice better count that too.

Tonight I have to take Daniel to work and pick him up - so a potential late night waiting to pick him up...then it is a one man show so it may not be too bad. I don't know.

Tomorrow I am supposed to chaperone at Chuck E Cheese for our family night between 5pm and 6pm.

Not looking forward to the next two days. Bring on the weekend.

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

writing a make you feel better...

still on track with points.

still sick.

this is all.

Monday, 19 October 2009

things can only get better...

Today I took the afternoon off school - well 10.30 onwards as we start at 7 - and popped along to the 'minute clinic' in a local pharmacy.

They said it is a virus going round with this whole fatigue thing and to wait it out. If after 7 days there is no improvement I will get blood taken (uh oh. kinda hate needley stuff) to check nothing more serious is going on.

I came home and slept for a few hours. I ate the left over ratatouille for lunch - which turned out well by the way - and only about a point for the kidney beans I added for protein.

I think I will stay off tomorrow. Being truthful, I know I need to as so far I don't feel improvement. I feel like someone beat me up and just so so weak all over. I really hate missing school to be honest, for many reasons. I love my kids. I get behind on everything. But I think I have no choice. I am feeling really down about it all and I just want to be well.

So far, food wise, it is 6.45pm and I have only had 10 points...I have 3 saved from yesterday too. I am struggling to eat them all - how rare for me to have no appetite.

OOOH jut remembered I had a doughnut today - they brought them round at school. Better go find out the points...4 apparently. Not too bad.

Sunday, 18 October 2009

Fight for this love

Well here I am trying to stick to my promises...

Today has been a washout but for once NOT ww wise!

Last night our neighbors had the loudest party ever. I could hear whole conversations and the music was THUMPING. Til 3am. As a result I slept til 1pm which I hate. I feel like it is wasted time. I really needed a full long sleep. I feel worse again today with the whole flu like feelings - but I don't have a fever or high temperature. Just complete fatigue and weakness. I feel very down about it all and I just want to feel better.

Was hoping to go for a walk today but don't know if that will be good or detrimental. Finally we are getting crisp autumn air, but I think it will heat up again this week. Shame. I like the cool air.

I had planned to just catch up on tv online - I have to say I'm enjoying watching the X factor, strictly, Merlin and I also hadn't watched this weeks Gossip Girl - very unusal for me and shows how tired I have been. I have watched some and I am still working on it...

So far I have eaten an egg sarnie (cooked in microwave), toast with nutella and a cereal bar...hmm doesn't sound too healthy written down.

I'm hoping to make up some ratatouille which will consist of onion, mushrooms, courgette, peppers and chopped tomatoes - and I am also adding kidney beans for protein. Hopefully I will feel well enough to make it. I have never made it before!

I still haven't eaten meat since we stopped...

See you tomorrow...

Saturday, 17 October 2009

I'm only sleeping...

I am really down.

I started off the week well. Actually, I was barely hungry. Had a migraine sunday night and stayed off school Monday. I felt so sick with it I was not really eating a whole lot.

Then as the week went on I made some mistakes. Buying a bag or 2 of mini twixes for my class was one - I must have eaten a fair few myself. And I am being kind to myself here.

On Thursday night - well afternoon - I fell asleep at 4pm in the arm chair. By 5pm I was in the bed. I awoke once or twice to eat (veggie hot dog) but I can hardly describe the exhaustion I felt. I slept all night til 5.30am - 13 hours of sleep. I can only say it was exhaustion. Every muscle in my body hurt. I felt drowsy, like I had been drugged. I also felt like my body had been hit by a car or that I had run a marathon. I am stil recovering from that - my body still aches and I feel weak.

I can only presume that it is medical exhaustion. I did have a few rough nights sleep this week but still.

Friday night my friend came over and we had pizza - as in take away. Oops. It was yummy I have to say but I know deep down I prefer Daniel's homemade pizza.

This blog shouldn't really be called a journey because I feel like I am going nowhere.

I don't know how to address the exhaustion. I HAVE to be up at 5am ish. Some days I have to get Daniel from work as late as 10 or later becasue he doesn't drive...or i take a nap when I get home...

Having said all this I just got on the scales (I heard Bryher's voice in my head...) and they put me and 234.6lb wich is a 2lb loss.

I don't get it. I can only think the exhaustion and lack of eating at the start of the week helped me out. I am a little worried about my scales as I weighed a few times and it went up and 1lb then back down. I decided just to take the first reading and change the batteries very soon.

I know I need a plan of action...

1. I will try to come on daily to evaluate the day to keep me on track rather than weekly.

2. I am terrible for cramming a cereal bar (chocolate coated, 3 points) into my mouth when I am hungry. I need more fruit and veg in my diet.

3. I will keep attempting the excercise. It just hasn't happened this week. The exhaustion reigned.

If you are reading I would love to hear from you...

Sunday, 11 October 2009

wasn't as bad as I thought...

I read Bryher's comment this morning and decided she was right - I did need to get back on the scales.
I was actually surprised - 236.6lbs - I think the last time I got on it was 238 and something.

So at least I'm not over my start weight I guess.

I went to the whole food, organicy kind of store last night and bought some fresh soups, clementines (only place i have seen them here) sugar snap peas (same) and am trying to make an effort now.

I guess the Starbucks will HAVE to go....

I don't think I have anything physical making me so tired - I go to bed around 10pm and my alarm goes off around 5.15am...maybe if it continues I will go check it out.

Saturday, 10 October 2009

truth? I'm going nowhere.

Did you know that a Starbucks signature hot chocolate is 10 points! I have had more that one of those this week....oh wow.

Anyway this journey has hit a huge bump - and very early on as I have not really got anywhere.

No one to blame but me...

Work is exhausting - not an excuse - but we have more kids and less help from assitants due to all the budget cuts we have had. I feel like I am scrambling through the day and this is taking a toll on me. I eat whatever is convenient - not fast food or anything but snack all day, take long naps, never excercise.

I stay in bed as long as possible - my alarm goes off around 5.15am and I snooze and snooze andjust about get to school on time.

I got on the scales last week to see a pound on. I didn't even bother getting on this week.

I have asked hubby to go with me on walks or to the gym. I hope this will give me more energy.

I mean how can I even expect a result? I haven't pointed or excercised. Not to mention the starbucks thing.

It's like in my mind, I know what I need to be doing and so on. My body just isn't complying.